Laughing, and more than a bit surprised, my husband came after me. "Honey, what are you doing?" he said, as he slowly opened the door. I honestly didn't know. I just didn't know how to handle the broken glass. I felt I'd committed a horrible, thoughtless act.
Years later, I can join with Bob, Tom and Jan in laughing about my silly response.
But there are bits of this foolishness still lingering in my heart.
Just the other day, I hurt someone with a thoughtless comment. As her face reflected the impact of my words and she looked down in pain, I heard something shattering. I knew I'd broken something precious in our relationship.
I wanted to run and hide, but the Lord gave me grace to ask for forgiveness. All is well. She is a gracious, forgiving friend.
But that "run and hide" thing. It's something that goes back to the Garden of Eden (Genesis 3:8-10). And it rises up in my own spirit more than I like to admit.
When I sin against the Lord—and really, isn't all sin against Him?—I try to hide. How?
- I hide when I keep so busy I don't have to think about or acknowledge my faults.
- I hide when I neglect a time alone with God, knowing I'll need to "fess up."
- I hide when I pretend everything is OK and keep on serving God. A good little Pharisee!
In her book, Everyday Grace, Jessica Thompson writes:
She's so right. One of the greatest hope-filled scriptures is 1 John 3:20:
"For when our heart condemns us,
God is greater than our heart, and He knows everything."
God knows EVERYTHING! Jesus knows I'm not perfect and won't be until I join Him in heaven. The Holy Spirit is ever-present to remind me when I don't live in truth.
When I continue to hide out, I'm really caught up in self-focused condemnation. It's a faulty focus!
God wants me to remember what Jesus did for me. My Savior is my Advocate. He intercedes for me; He doesn't condemn me (1 John 2:1-2; Romans 8:34). I don't have to justify myself because the Father has already declared me justified . . . righteous in Christ (Romans 3:24; 5:1; Titus 3:4-6).
Without the resurrection of Christ, I would still be in my sin—my faith would be worthless and ineffective (1 Corinthians 15:17)—but, praise the Lord, death had no power over Jesus (Romans 6:9). I will live with Him in glory (Ephesians 2:6)!
Paul calls true Christians to live this Resurrection life as spelled out in Colossians 3:1-5a:
- Seek heavenly, eternal things; set your mind on them.
- Remember that you died with Christ and you were also raised with Him.
- Therefore, your life is "hidden" with Him in glory.
- So "put to death" those earthly things that do not reflect your new life in Christ!
I especially love that part of verse three that says, "your life is hidden with Christ in God."
Because I am "hidden" in Him, there's no more need for hiding when I sin!
What a wondrous truth!
"Jesus paid it all, all to Him I owe.
Sin had left a crimson stain; He washed it white as snow."
(Hymn by Elvina Hall)
Do you need to come out of hiding today?